I'd like to have enough energy to shower immediately after getting home insead of sitting in a chair for 20+ minutes trying to recharge. I'd like to take back my free time. Be able to manage my home similar to how I manage work. I want to have the energy to exercise the muscles of my choice. The energy to clean and cook without wanting to cry. I keep telling myself it's because I'm not determined enough. Honestly, I'm exhausted and thinking that way only makes me depressed. I work so hard because if I don't the next day will be worse. I'm not sure what's more exhausting, seeing the next shift disappointed/anxious or physically moving a mountain. When I slip up and miss something on my todo list, I end up remembering it while I'm trying to fall asleep. 🤦
I think it's about time I figure out how to manage this. I need to treat myself with the same consideration I give to thoes around me.
I realise we INFJs are so hard on ourselves - we set very high expectations and judge ourselves if we fall short of them. And yet if others around us fall short, we are so quick to empathise with them and are willing to cut them some slack. We are such contradictory creatures!
I'd like to have enough energy to shower immediately after getting home insead of sitting in a chair for 20+ minutes trying to recharge. I'd like to take back my free time. Be able to manage my home similar to how I manage work. I want to have the energy to exercise the muscles of my choice. The energy to clean and cook without wanting to cry. I keep telling myself it's because I'm not determined enough. Honestly, I'm exhausted and thinking that way only makes me depressed. I work so hard because if I don't the next day will be worse. I'm not sure what's more exhausting, seeing the next shift disappointed/anxious or physically moving a mountain. When I slip up and miss something on my todo list, I end up remembering it while I'm trying to fall asleep. 🤦
I think it's about time I figure out how to manage this. I need to treat myself with the same consideration I give to thoes around me.
I realise we INFJs are so hard on ourselves - we set very high expectations and judge ourselves if we fall short of them. And yet if others around us fall short, we are so quick to empathise with them and are willing to cut them some slack. We are such contradictory creatures!