I regret to inform you that in this regard I'm not in balance. And recognize that I have limited myself, yes, that trigger in me a "wave of sadness or disappointment" for the "opportunities missed or needs left unmet", daily!! (My weakness has been discovered) :P :O
I can only express my unadulterated shame for what I have accepted in the form of grotesque abuse in the name of friendship and love and I literally have fought for my life. I don't even hold claim to any level of a single successful achievement of being any closer to becoming the only thing that I have EVER wanted to be in my life, the best thing that happened to someone. My someone who has chosen me! I have accomplished a great deal of contempt, disregard, and annihilation to my life, love, and identity! So much PAIN, a breaking of my heart so severe I can hear my soul shattering and yet I do NOTHING but listen and die a bit more in every passing hour! Paralyzed by the hatred I have somehow been responsible for putting into the heart that I desperately need to love me and I have no idea how I have done it? I'm not sure if I even exist anymore and if I somehow do is there anything still in me that is worth saving? I live in constant fear of having to be "taught" once again EVERYTHING from A to Z that is wrong with me, terrified of the words that will be thrown at me without a shred of empathy and intended to do nothing more than DESTROY my being! Constant ridicules and judgement and trials of which I have only been found guilty for the narrative that I have done nothing to support nor earn by merit! I don't know how I was able to live for 47 years without ever knowing or being informed of the utter disgust of the vile person that I am! All in the name of LOVE!
I live in the Chicagoland area and am looking for a psychologist prone to work with the Meyers-Briggs methodology. There has to be a better way to find a good professional other than randomly picking from my Healthcare provider‘s website or asking friends and family. I’m open to online appointments too. If I wasn't clear enough, tips are welcome. Thanks! ☺️
I regret to inform you that in this regard I'm not in balance. And recognize that I have limited myself, yes, that trigger in me a "wave of sadness or disappointment" for the "opportunities missed or needs left unmet", daily!! (My weakness has been discovered) :P :O
I can only express my unadulterated shame for what I have accepted in the form of grotesque abuse in the name of friendship and love and I literally have fought for my life. I don't even hold claim to any level of a single successful achievement of being any closer to becoming the only thing that I have EVER wanted to be in my life, the best thing that happened to someone. My someone who has chosen me! I have accomplished a great deal of contempt, disregard, and annihilation to my life, love, and identity! So much PAIN, a breaking of my heart so severe I can hear my soul shattering and yet I do NOTHING but listen and die a bit more in every passing hour! Paralyzed by the hatred I have somehow been responsible for putting into the heart that I desperately need to love me and I have no idea how I have done it? I'm not sure if I even exist anymore and if I somehow do is there anything still in me that is worth saving? I live in constant fear of having to be "taught" once again EVERYTHING from A to Z that is wrong with me, terrified of the words that will be thrown at me without a shred of empathy and intended to do nothing more than DESTROY my being! Constant ridicules and judgement and trials of which I have only been found guilty for the narrative that I have done nothing to support nor earn by merit! I don't know how I was able to live for 47 years without ever knowing or being informed of the utter disgust of the vile person that I am! All in the name of LOVE!
I live in the Chicagoland area and am looking for a psychologist prone to work with the Meyers-Briggs methodology. There has to be a better way to find a good professional other than randomly picking from my Healthcare provider‘s website or asking friends and family. I’m open to online appointments too. If I wasn't clear enough, tips are welcome. Thanks! ☺️